Hello Everyone,
Believe it or not, I have been sitting in this chair for two hours, and have attempted to start this post multiple times. As per usual, my ridiculous idea-filled head is thinking a million thoughts a minute, making it virtually impossible to decide on an answer to one simple question...
Informative or Descriptive?
Do I give you the facts? Or do I give you the story? I'm a believer in most opportune things, but unfortunately making decisions at 23:30 at night is not one of them. Therefore, I shall give you both.
I, an 18 year old, 5 ft 2, youngest of five, hate being frustrated. Whether it is through anger, sadness, passion, or plain boredom, being frustrated with myself, others, or just life in general, is my absolute worst. For me, it is to be avoided at all costs. Since realising this about myself, I wrote endless lists. Lists of things to do, things to achieve, things to make sure happen, and promising plans of actions. I've always told people "Lists are life changing", for me, they are an organisation of thoughts and creators of security.
Earlier this year, the feeling of frustration was at a maxxxxx. (This is the descriptive bit by the way!) Several aspects of my life were what I'd consider "up in the air", a waiting game with no miraculous ending, which required me to just "what and see", or "take everyday as it comes." Now I, for one, love a good nail-biting X-Factor final just as much as the next girl, but for a 'list-maker', uncertainty is not always the one.
On a more serious note, *Deep breath Kiz*, I was at a stage where no list I could scribble on a pad of paper and no plan of action I could conjure up late at night would give me any more control over what was happening. Nothing was going to replace the fact that I just had to wait. I had to allow for every action to be acted, every word to be spoken, and every promise to be made, and trust that whether or not it was 'part of my plan', it was meant to be happening just the way it was.
Eventually, I decided that even though my annoying needs to do, well, just...something, could not work it's usual magic, I could create something that it could. After weeks of mind maps and idea pages, (...see?..) I had an idea that I recognised would be a big commitment, and would require a lot of work. But, if I pursued it and it was successfully realised, would open my eyes to the lives of people that differed from my own even more, and in return enrich my understanding of people, and the fact that whatever situation you are in, there is always someone wishing they had all that you have.
The Plan: (Here comes the informative bit!)
I would spend 12 months (a year, for all you logical thinkers) researching, planning (yay!), doing, and evaluating 1 'good deed' a month. Now, I know what you may be thinking, 'Woah! Kiz, how are you so rich and wealthy all of a sudden?' Well, flattering one, who said it had to be money?! Whatever the gesture, big or small, a charity run or a cake sale, the aim is to do something 'good' for anyone and everyone, once a month. However, in order to make my '12 Months of Giving' as beneficial and effective as possible, I will be writing 2 posts on here a month. The first to let you know my 'good deed' for that month and raise awareness for the charity or cause, and the second to let you know how it went. As we all know, 'sharing is caring' so if any of you, or anyone you know is interested in the charity, cause, or just the 'good deed' I am doing that month, I invite you to come along with me!
Anyway, I hope that from that peculiar explosion of thoughts, ideas, and general impulses, you are able to work out just about what the idea of this whole thing is. I realise it would have probably been wise to write this whole thing in the morning, but just pressing the 'publish' button rather than staring at a page of words in day light sounds better to me. I felt like the explanation was necessary in order to not be a random Randy, but I promise that we can all take our scuba diving goggles off now, and get our logical caps on, I do not intend to list my flaws and dive that deep every month! Hopefully, you will like the idea and come back in a few days to hear my plans for my first 'good deed' for September!
Be good!
Kizzy :)
